Facing Fear.

Who knew? I can say most assuredly that I didn't. It was Wednesday, February 23, 2011 when I was asked to sing "I Believe in You and Me" with a student from Westbury...over the PA during the morning announcements. For years, I have been trying to overcome my fear of singing so that I can use my gift to inspire and deliver the messages God has placed upon my heart. Well, I guess since my method of overcoming (which was not moving at all) was not working, God put me in a place where it was a bit harder to say "no". I was called out of class by a co-worker, and I assumed that she needed to speak to me regarding "teacher business". As soon as I walked into the hallway, it was an AMBUSH! LOL...Ms. Johnson, along with another co-worker and a student gave me the lyrics, and said " Can you sing this excerpt from the song?" I was like," Wow"...Way to put me on blast! We had to sing ON THE SPOT... and this is the funny part. This is the excerpt we were singing:
                                                                              "I believe in dreams again
                                                                              I believe that love will never end
                                                                              And like the river finds the sea
                                                                              I was lost
                                                                              And now I'm free
                                                                              'Cause I believe in you and me"

I kept telling myself that this is so random, but strangely, I received a text message from my "Uncle" in the ministry, saying "Stuff does not just happen. There is a divine purpose for everything..." As if that didn't convict me, about an hour later on Pandora, "Seasons" came on...all I remember is "Walk into your season". So I knew it was time...no matter how uncomfortable it was for me. And trust, it was the most uncomfortable I have felt in a long time...high school campus? The most CRITICAL beings ever! I had to keep telling the enemy to leave my presence because he had me doubting myself...however, I was able to overcome negativity with positivity. Well, here it is Monday Feb 28, 2011 and...I DID IT! A small part, but a HUGE step in my escape from confinement.


-Butterfly