But Jesus immediately said to them: "Take courage! It is I. Don't be afraid." Matthew 14: 27
I am walking a step closer to my destiny. As mentioned before, I allowed the enemy to oppress me with fear for a long time and I am finally coming out...walking on the Word.
It started out as us just being late for church (as usual...a habit that MUST be broken). It so happened to be my cousin's birthday and we were taking him and my youngest brother to church. Well by the time we were ready, it was about 12:50...church was just about over. Mind you, it had been a while since they had been to church so I felt extremely bad because as the oldest, I should have been a better leader than I was being at the time. We almost didn't go. Dre had his brother's game that he wanted to get to, and we were going to settle for reading a scripture in the car...sad. Well I got on FB mobile, (not intentionally looking for a church) and my sorority sister had a status that led me to want to find out where this church was. Note that the status mentioned nothing about the church-just a simple statement "walk on water". We pulled up the directions on GPS and took the ride. I did not know what I was in for. Who knew that the sermon to be preached was going to have the exact same message (stepping out of your comfort zone and into faith) as the one from my church ? "Was it a conspiracy?" Lies from the enemy...It's not like there was a preacher convention and they sent out an urgent message, "THE MIKELL'S ARE COMING! PROMPT THE MESSAGE!"
As if the Lord knew the doubt that still overcame me about the message, 2 more subsequent trips to the church..the message was still the same!!! You would think I would get it by now! Well not until about 3:14pm on this day, did it hit me. It's time for me to step out on faith!!! I'm long overdue! Some say, "Well it's a recession going on" " that may not be the wisest thing to do" but this is what I say to those people: MY GOD IS GREATER THAN THE RECESSION. MY GOD IS GREATER THAN ALL MY PROBLEMS. And finally, I am leaving it in HIS HANDS. I am moving in to all that God has called me to be, and YES it is a process...and I'm sure more problems will come. I mean, right now I feel like I'm alone. I have a few friends that have kinda hung in there...but what God has been trying to get through my thick head for years is to stop depending on others for your joy and confide in ME! Silly T. lol. It's hard turning from a "comfortable" lifestyle, but clearly when you grow, so do your obstacles...but I am not defeated. I may not understand all of the things he does and allows to happen but HE is definitely working on me. Although
it was not a part of our plan, it was a part of HIS plan...
"Lord, if it's you," Peter replied, "tell me to come to you on the water."
"Come" He said. Matthew 14:28-29a
Stay tuned...
Tiara Andréan
He tells no lies. He does no wrong. He tells you exactly what you want to hear.
Mr. Perfect married Ms. Guilty. Yet, Ms. Guilty aka "Mrs. Perfect" longed for an affair with The Flawed Man...
The Flawed Man loved Ms. Guilty, however he hid behind the shadows of Mr. Perfect because he always viewed him as superior...so his love for Ms. Guilty was never revealed. Sadly, just as The Flawed Man lived, he was killed...oops, I mean, he died. You see, Mr.Perfect knew about The Flawed Man's intentions of stealing his blushing bride, so...he did what any perfect man would do. He protected what was his...or did he? You see, its not that simple. Ms. Guilty also was filled with anger because The Flawed Man told her time and time again that he had a plan to wisk her away...and she believed him. But how many false promises can you forgive before you realize that the term"false promise" is just a jazzed up lie?
~Tiara Andre'an
Who knew? I can say most assuredly that I didn't. It was Wednesday, February 23, 2011 when I was asked to sing "I Believe in You and Me" with a student from Westbury...over the PA during the morning announcements. For years, I have been trying to overcome my fear of singing so that I can use my gift to inspire and deliver the messages God has placed upon my heart. Well, I guess since my method of overcoming (which was not moving at all) was not working, God put me in a place where it was a bit harder to say "no". I was called out of class by a co-worker, and I assumed that she needed to speak to me regarding "teacher business". As soon as I walked into the hallway, it was an AMBUSH! LOL...Ms. Johnson, along with another co-worker and a student gave me the lyrics, and said " Can you sing this excerpt from the song?" I was like," Wow"...Way to put me on blast! We had to sing ON THE SPOT... and this is the funny part. This is the excerpt we were singing:
"I believe in dreams again
I believe that love will never end
And like the river finds the sea
I was lost
And now I'm free
'Cause I believe in you and me"
I kept telling myself that this is so random, but strangely, I received a text message from my "Uncle" in the ministry, saying "Stuff does not just happen. There is a divine purpose for everything..." As if that didn't convict me, about an hour later on Pandora, "Seasons" came on...all I remember is "Walk into your season". So I knew it was time...no matter how uncomfortable it was for me. And trust, it was the most uncomfortable I have felt in a long time...high school campus? The most CRITICAL beings ever! I had to keep telling the enemy to leave my presence because he had me doubting myself...however, I was able to overcome negativity with positivity. Well, here it is Monday Feb 28, 2011 and...I DID IT! A small part, but a HUGE step in my escape from confinement.
-Butterfly
