Poppin' off the Lid!

For years, I kept a lid on it. Afraid of judgement, but not realizing I was stifling my testimony. God is good y'all! I owe HIM my life. 

You see, the enemy tries to isolate you and make you feel like you are alone...I've had some dark times...

There would be no Melody. No Langston...if I believed the lies of the enemy. "You're worthless T. You have no purpose T. You're ugly T. Life would be better off without you" ...LIES!  

I think about what I'm doing now and the lives God has used me to positively impact, the blessings I've received,  the things God has used me to do, and it hit me...I AM A THREAT! 

Ppl struggle with depression, loneliness, suicidal thoughts, alone and they don't have to. You never know who has been there...who may BE there in the present. It makes me wonder how many people would still be here had they had someone to talk to...had they had someone to say, "I've been where you are and it CAN get better!" People are hurting y'all. Let's share more love than criticism. 

I refuse to let my pride stop me from helping someone. If my transparency stops someone from doing the unthinkable, then Praise GOD! 

I used to hear all the time, "it's not about you...the struggles you face, what you go through...it's to bless someone else!" My God! We get so caught up in "how we look" and what people will think and this false sense of perfection. Well I'm a director and I'm calling it. "CUT"! I'm not saying air out your dirty laundry, but I am saying don't allow your pride or fear of judgement get in the way of your testimony of deliverance. 

I'm not sure who this is for but I hope it uplifts someone. There IS a reason for your existence. There IS a reason you woke up this morning. Live ON purpose. Be kind don't forget to smile. 

Be easy people! ✌🏾️

Love, 

Tiara A.M. 

Butterfly UNconfined

V.1
so much to do, and so much to see with little T-I-M-E "Time"
I don't want my dash in the middle/ to be so unfulfilled/live out my purpose gives me peace of mind/
I don't think my life should be just/a catchy little single with a beat and rhyme/
but more like a million piece symphony, but its all trapped in my mind...

(hook)...kinda like a butterfly confined/to the cocoon of my mind
Trapped by the devils lies/Just tryna get it right/before I'm out of time
Lord grant me peace of mind/my will is pushed aside/don't wanna be stuck like/a BUTTERFLY CONFINED🐛

V.2
The spirit is willing...ever so willing/but the flesh is clearly weak
I get tired of thinking of moving, but not moving cuz I'm thinking/
It's like a track that's on "repeat" /
Father, I just need direction/cuz following my own path is getting old/can't live like this no mo'/ new heights I got-2-go/wanna loosen these ties that bind, this BUTTERFLY CONFINED 🐛➡hook

(Bridge)
Away...far away from the ties that bind me/I will no longer be my worst en-e-my/closer to you Lord is where-I-wan-na-be
El-evate-my-mind...
Refocus, reshape and restore me/Surround me with pos-it-iv-i-ty...
Give me the courage to take flight/beyond the limits of my mind/BUTTERFLY UN-CONFINED (to NEW hook)

🌟(new hook)🌟
Refreshed and oh so fly-in/to the highest moun-tain/aciously I'm grinding/all the while, "still smiling"
not shook by what ppl say/no longer "fear enslaved"
My newest testi-mony/thank you Lord for your grace....🙏

Confirmation!

But Jesus immediately said to them: "Take courage! It is I. Don't be afraid." Matthew 14: 27

I am walking a step closer to my destiny. As mentioned before, I allowed the enemy to oppress me with fear for a long time and I am finally coming out...walking on the Word.

It started out as us just being late for church (as usual...a habit that MUST be broken). It so happened to be my cousin's birthday and we were taking him and my youngest brother to church. Well by the time we were ready, it was about 12:50...church was just about over. Mind you, it had been a while since they had been to church so I felt extremely bad because as the oldest, I should have been a better leader than I was being at the time. We almost didn't go. Dre had his brother's game that he wanted to get to, and we were going to settle for reading a scripture in the car...sad. Well I got on FB mobile, (not intentionally looking for a church) and my sorority sister had a status that led me to want to find out where this church was. Note that the status mentioned nothing about the church-just a simple statement "walk on water". We pulled up the directions on GPS and took the ride. I did not know what I was in for. Who knew that the sermon to be preached was going to have the exact same message (stepping out of your comfort zone and into faith) as the one from my church ? "Was it a conspiracy?" Lies from the enemy...It's not like there was a preacher convention and they sent out an urgent message, "THE MIKELL'S ARE COMING! PROMPT THE MESSAGE!"
  As if the Lord knew the doubt that still overcame me about the message, 2 more subsequent trips to the church..the message was still the same!!! You would think I would get it by now! Well not until about 3:14pm on this day, did it hit me. It's time for me to step out on faith!!! I'm long overdue! Some say, "Well it's a recession going on" " that may not be the wisest thing to do" but this is what I say to those people: MY GOD IS GREATER THAN THE RECESSION. MY GOD IS GREATER THAN ALL MY PROBLEMS. And finally, I am leaving it in HIS HANDS. I am moving in to all that God has called me to be, and YES it is a process...and I'm sure more problems will come. I mean, right now I feel like I'm alone. I have a few friends that have kinda hung in there...but what God has been trying to get through my thick head for years is to stop depending on others for your joy and confide in ME! Silly T. lol. It's hard turning from a "comfortable" lifestyle, but clearly when you grow, so do your obstacles...but I am not defeated.  I may not understand all of the things he does and allows to happen but HE is definitely working on me.  Although
it was not a part of our plan, it was a part of HIS plan...


"Lord, if it's you," Peter replied, "tell me to come to you on the water." 
"Come" He said. Matthew 14:28-29a

Stay tuned...

Tiara Andréan

Excerpt from The Day I Met "Mr. Perfect"

He tells no lies. He does no wrong. He tells you exactly what you want to hear.

Mr. Perfect married Ms. Guilty. Yet, Ms. Guilty aka "Mrs. Perfect" longed for an affair with The Flawed Man...

The Flawed Man loved Ms. Guilty, however he hid behind the shadows of Mr. Perfect because he always viewed him as superior...so his love for Ms. Guilty was never revealed. Sadly, just as The Flawed Man lived, he was killed...oops, I mean, he died. You see, Mr.Perfect knew about The Flawed Man's intentions of stealing his blushing bride, so...he did what any perfect man would do. He protected what was his...or did he? You see, its not that simple. Ms. Guilty also was filled with anger because The Flawed Man told her time and time again that he had a plan to wisk her away...and she believed him. But how many false promises can you forgive before you realize that the term"false promise" is just a jazzed up lie?




~Tiara Andre'an

Facing Fear.

Who knew? I can say most assuredly that I didn't. It was Wednesday, February 23, 2011 when I was asked to sing "I Believe in You and Me" with a student from Westbury...over the PA during the morning announcements. For years, I have been trying to overcome my fear of singing so that I can use my gift to inspire and deliver the messages God has placed upon my heart. Well, I guess since my method of overcoming (which was not moving at all) was not working, God put me in a place where it was a bit harder to say "no". I was called out of class by a co-worker, and I assumed that she needed to speak to me regarding "teacher business". As soon as I walked into the hallway, it was an AMBUSH! LOL...Ms. Johnson, along with another co-worker and a student gave me the lyrics, and said " Can you sing this excerpt from the song?" I was like," Wow"...Way to put me on blast! We had to sing ON THE SPOT... and this is the funny part. This is the excerpt we were singing:
                                                                              "I believe in dreams again
                                                                              I believe that love will never end
                                                                              And like the river finds the sea
                                                                              I was lost
                                                                              And now I'm free
                                                                              'Cause I believe in you and me"

I kept telling myself that this is so random, but strangely, I received a text message from my "Uncle" in the ministry, saying "Stuff does not just happen. There is a divine purpose for everything..." As if that didn't convict me, about an hour later on Pandora, "Seasons" came on...all I remember is "Walk into your season". So I knew it was time...no matter how uncomfortable it was for me. And trust, it was the most uncomfortable I have felt in a long time...high school campus? The most CRITICAL beings ever! I had to keep telling the enemy to leave my presence because he had me doubting myself...however, I was able to overcome negativity with positivity. Well, here it is Monday Feb 28, 2011 and...I DID IT! A small part, but a HUGE step in my escape from confinement.


-Butterfly